When we are caught unaware, we ask, “what happened”?    This can be an awakening in a hospital bed, or someone closing the door on a relationship.   What ever the case, we experience confusion. 

In the betrayals of this life, we find ourselves wondering.   Sometimes it is only because we trusted to soon.   In the mistakes we make, whether loving, only to find ourselves unloved, or a breakdown in health, and our quality of life, (our jobs, our homes, and our children turn away) we sense betrayal.   People are of a nature about them selves.   Compassion is of Christ.  It is impossiable to be compassionate without our Lords help.   He has been there and done that!   So, He already knows the hurt…..abandoned, betrayed, and alone.    His experience was first.   So in choosing to try to come to an understanding of sorts, and a healing, He is the only one who can bring the peace to the unexpected.   As I said, Our Heavenly Father wants a closer relationship with us all.    His only Son, Jesus is our mediator in this life.    Jesus Christ can never be more personable than he already is.   However, we must reach for His hand, and crave His guidance.   His way is the only way.

Sometimes its health, and a deterioration of our health, and seizures, and medication conflicts that are a burden.    At this point the whole thing becomes about us.    Yet, Jesus still waits for our call.   To some point He may ‘try’ us to a level of patience that only He can brings us through.   This can be to the point of humiliation.

I can assure you, it is not easy to be subjected to the trial.   For one  who is known to have seizures or black out’s, or medication imbalance, it affects our very being every day.    This is a trust issue.    For to trust in His love is paramount in all situations, but for me it is essential.    For I am totally aware of my vulnerability, whereas others take themselves for granted!

This is a God-Given Grace!    Though difficult to equate, it really reminds me daily how totally fragile life is, and the gift that it is.

In the wisdom of God, He has in some ways done me a great favor by constantly keeping me on guard, and with Him at  the forfront of my mind and heart daily.

That is not to say others do not have this ‘gift’, but rather to share an awareness of the depth of the ‘grace of God’!

For to come to the resolve that life is temporary, and fragile, it reaches its fullness.

Jesus Speaks:   Book of John Chapter 11 verses 41-42

41)”They then took away the stone and Jesus looked upward and said:

“Father, I thank you for having heard me.   42)I know that you always hear me but I have said this for the sake of the crowd, that they may believe that you sent me.”